oink oink

ok im having a breakdown. i think i have let the fat win. i am 5'4" and 135 pounds!!!! this is the most i've ever weighed in my whole life. 3 years ago when i first started dating alex i was 5'4" and 110 pounds. yea do the math. I have given away all my skinny clothes and not been excercising at ALL. I tried on my bathing suit tonight and all i have to say is i won't be going to any public beaches this summer.

So what can I do? Here is my plan: I am not eating past 7pm (because I go to bed around 10). No more huge meal for lunch and dinner. And I might actually get on that bike every now and again. That doesn't sound like much but if I make some huge plan I will never stick to it! haha. Oh and Jess and I were talking and I may need to give up rum :[ Tequila and Vodka it is...haha

Im in the prime of my life and I am not letting this addiction get to me!!!! Plus it makes me sad to give away all my cute clothes.

OH I forgot to mention the kicker. Alex has been doing roofing everyday the past month and he has these huge muscles out of no where. and his stomach is flatter. i hate men.