Day one of summer vacation consisted of shopping with mom and watching 3 hours of True Life on MTV. True Life episode one talked about people who were addicted to video games, next episode was people who were addicted to prescription drugs, and the final episode was people who were addicted to pornography.
All of the stories on their were very extreme but one that really hit me was this guy who was in his twenties who watched 5 to 10 hours of porn a day and when he wasn't watching it he was at the strip club getting lap dances!!! um pathetic. Let me describe this fetching young man. Short, goatee, crew cut, fitted hat worn to the side, big gold chain, humps over funny (probably due to sitting in front of computer for 5 to 10 hours at a time), tattoos of naked women on his body and wears slim little glasses OH and a pimp daddy fedora hat. He lives with his grandmother and drives a 85 Caddy. His free time consists of spending time at Spanky's (local porn shop), spending time at the strip club, and of course the rest of his day is spent in his computer chair.
Isn't that sad? Poor guy.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
old journal entry
Tonight I was reading my journal and it always cracks me up to read this stuff I wrote 3 years ago. What a drama QUEEN!!! I mean it was only 3 years ago and I feel like I am a completely different person. I guess that is what happens when you grow up. My idea was to post a diary entry on here every once in a while! Just promise not to judge me because I was freaking nuts apparently haha. Oh and I am changing the names on here (except Alex & Jesse) just because I can see this somehow coming back and slapping me in the face. I am posting from the summer of 2007 which was officially the WILDEST summer of my life and I attribute that to the fact that Alex broke my heart in the beginning of it and I was doing anything I could to forget him.
Ok this entry is just flat out funny. I sound really full of myself and I was haha. I think this is why God made me gain weight. I can't even believe I am talking about 3 guys in this entry!
July 8, 2007
Ok Alex still hasn't gotten up with me. But hes old news...speaking of old news I gave Jesse a ride to peaches house tonight..and he was ignorant about it. Honestly, I only did it so he could see how hot I am haha. Yea and Isaac, I like him. Even though I keep hearing all this dramatic bullshit about him...I wish girls would just leave us alone and stop gossiping. Im going to Betsys now! Ciao
(I am actually proud of this next blog. I think I was starting to get a clue!)
August 5, 2007
The first step to getting rid of Jesse is to realize that I am co-dependent on him. I always use the excuse "I picked the phone up because we have always been there for each other" but you know what, he has NEVER been there for me. A part of him wears away at me and I need to figure out what it is about myself that keeps getting worn away by him. 30 years down the road he will probably be alone and sadly enough could be in this same position and I have no doubt that if I don't change he will keep doing this to me. Its not enough to vow to myself that I won't talk to him. I need to really work at it and want it. And I do want it. Co-dependent people thrive on co-dependent people. So I am getting rid of all my boy toys except Alex. There is no need to be seeing twenty guys. I need to learn to love myself enough to not need a guy to make me happy...except Alex. i really like him. haha. So thats my thoughts.
UM YAY goo Jamie. Maybe I wasn't entirely crazy. I can honestly say this is the last entry I ever wrote about Jesse.
Well more to come of this in further blogs. I think I can chalk these up as learning experiences!
Ok this entry is just flat out funny. I sound really full of myself and I was haha. I think this is why God made me gain weight. I can't even believe I am talking about 3 guys in this entry!
July 8, 2007
Ok Alex still hasn't gotten up with me. But hes old news...speaking of old news I gave Jesse a ride to peaches house tonight..and he was ignorant about it. Honestly, I only did it so he could see how hot I am haha. Yea and Isaac, I like him. Even though I keep hearing all this dramatic bullshit about him...I wish girls would just leave us alone and stop gossiping. Im going to Betsys now! Ciao
(I am actually proud of this next blog. I think I was starting to get a clue!)
August 5, 2007
The first step to getting rid of Jesse is to realize that I am co-dependent on him. I always use the excuse "I picked the phone up because we have always been there for each other" but you know what, he has NEVER been there for me. A part of him wears away at me and I need to figure out what it is about myself that keeps getting worn away by him. 30 years down the road he will probably be alone and sadly enough could be in this same position and I have no doubt that if I don't change he will keep doing this to me. Its not enough to vow to myself that I won't talk to him. I need to really work at it and want it. And I do want it. Co-dependent people thrive on co-dependent people. So I am getting rid of all my boy toys except Alex. There is no need to be seeing twenty guys. I need to learn to love myself enough to not need a guy to make me happy...except Alex. i really like him. haha. So thats my thoughts.
UM YAY goo Jamie. Maybe I wasn't entirely crazy. I can honestly say this is the last entry I ever wrote about Jesse.
Well more to come of this in further blogs. I think I can chalk these up as learning experiences!
ahh sweet freedom...or not.
I really didn't mean for my last blog to sound so evil...I think Alex is smart and is going to make the right decision.
So, I just took my last exam of my last spring semester EVER. What a weird feeling. I feel like I have no obligations, nothing to do, no homework to keep up with, I DONT EVEN HAVE NEED FOR MY LILY PULITZER PLANNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! um this is fabulous. I could live like this forever. Free from all of my responsibilities and able to just kick back and live for me. Although I am already starting to feel anxious from the fact I have nothing to do. Maybe I will vacuum my car. Maybe I will write a list of what to pack for my trip to Jessica's house in 2 weeks, maybe I will cook dinner, do laundry, pull weeds, wash the windows, paint the shutters, vacuum the house, go to the mall, go to church, read a book, pick flowers, pluck my eyebrows...
I can't wait for school to start.
So, I just took my last exam of my last spring semester EVER. What a weird feeling. I feel like I have no obligations, nothing to do, no homework to keep up with, I DONT EVEN HAVE NEED FOR MY LILY PULITZER PLANNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! um this is fabulous. I could live like this forever. Free from all of my responsibilities and able to just kick back and live for me. Although I am already starting to feel anxious from the fact I have nothing to do. Maybe I will vacuum my car. Maybe I will write a list of what to pack for my trip to Jessica's house in 2 weeks, maybe I will cook dinner, do laundry, pull weeds, wash the windows, paint the shutters, vacuum the house, go to the mall, go to church, read a book, pick flowers, pluck my eyebrows...
I can't wait for school to start.
chirp
Can everybody pray that Alex wakes up and smells the coffee...and money?! haha I feel like since he has been working at Seacrets I have been encouraging him to go to school, or work at Nasa, or do anything else besides work at Seacrets.
When he proposed I automatically assumed this was his way of saying he was ready to grow up, get a career, buy house, work on house, get married, 10 years later have kids. NONE of this other stuff is happening until he quits Seacrets. Thats my final say. I feel like the next 10 years are about enjoying being married, working on our "nest" and one day putting some birds in our nest and I am not nesting with any bird who stays out all night, who doesn't have benefits, and who doesn't even have a secure career. So maybe my bird will get the point and peck his way out of Seacrets and into something more stable.
When he proposed I automatically assumed this was his way of saying he was ready to grow up, get a career, buy house, work on house, get married, 10 years later have kids. NONE of this other stuff is happening until he quits Seacrets. Thats my final say. I feel like the next 10 years are about enjoying being married, working on our "nest" and one day putting some birds in our nest and I am not nesting with any bird who stays out all night, who doesn't have benefits, and who doesn't even have a secure career. So maybe my bird will get the point and peck his way out of Seacrets and into something more stable.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
pictureees
suddenly my newsfeed on facebook is scattered with "engagement" pictures. So of course that makes me wonder if I am behind or something haha. It didn't really occur to me this was necessary but I would like to put a picture in the paper. I was thinking I would just wait for an actual marriage announcement. Idk...I've never been married before so I am confused on this topic. Oh that reminds me...I was talking to my old boss and this is what she said to me "Well, for your first wedding it is definitely nice to have a large wedding but for your second you would want something small". Is that sad or what?! I couldn't help but laugh and she said well hopefully that won't be the case!
So today Alex cut the grass at 510 and I pulled weeds, de-vined the porch, planted some flowers that Anne gave me, and collected stuff from the yard. It actually looks like somebody lives there! I feel better about buying the house now that it is cleaned out and looks cute again. We work ourselves to death lately. He gets off work, I get off work or school, and we both go over there and work on that house till we can hardly stand anymore. No wonder I am so sore all the time!
TATA fo now :]
So today Alex cut the grass at 510 and I pulled weeds, de-vined the porch, planted some flowers that Anne gave me, and collected stuff from the yard. It actually looks like somebody lives there! I feel better about buying the house now that it is cleaned out and looks cute again. We work ourselves to death lately. He gets off work, I get off work or school, and we both go over there and work on that house till we can hardly stand anymore. No wonder I am so sore all the time!
TATA fo now :]
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Parker Place Day 2
Well, Anne was having a terrible pest issue in her bathroom the last time I went to Parker Place. So this morning I woke up at 5 am or so and it hit me that she needs to set off a bug bomb. So I told her my idea when I got there this morning and we went to Ace and she got some. After that we took a little buying trip to Salvation Army and this store called Habitat for Humanity. I had never been there and it was full of sinks, tubs, cabinets, furniture, basically anything you would need if you were restoring or building a house. So that was a helpful place to know about since Alex and I are doing just that here shortly. Anne also showed me the location of her first store before she moved downtown.
Then for the rest of the afternoon I gave some organization to her fabric rack, re-arranged the area I did the other day (because stuff sold!!), and also began a new project that I didn't get to finish today. I also priced stuff because there was alot of things missing a tag. So that was my fun day. It flew by. I think I could volunteer doing this forever haha.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
internship day 1
I completely forgot to tell you all how my first day at Parker Place went! Well I started on a Saturday, I got there at 11 (thats when they open so I get to sleep in!). My first task was to give some organization, theme, and basically re-arrange this area that lacked focus. If you haven't been in the store before it is broken down in little sections...almost like rooms. The "rooms" are arranged by color, textures, patterns, themes (nautical, garden). Anyhow every part has some kind of theme and the "room" I was doing lacked it completely.
It was sort of a big task to take on in my first hour there but I did it pretty lickity split with the help of Annes daughter who is 11 or 10 I believe. At first I tried to do a kitchen theme but there is this large purple chair in their and before I knew it I was using the lavender chair as my inspiration and putting things in the section that matched purple. I got to pull things from the basement and around the store (as long as I replaced them with something!) When I first started the task I thought it would take me almost the whole day but of course after I had inspiration I was done in an hour.
Then Anne got us Pizza and I didn't do too much for the rest of the day. Sat out in the garden center for a while, re-arranged a few things around the store. It was really fun. I think this experience is only going to re-confirm that I want to be my own boss and do what I want. In the past few jobs I have had there has been so many rules, regulations, and policies that I feel like I have no creative freedom and it drives me nuts! When I worked at Cato it was my job to dress the 4 manicons. I pretty much got to dress them in whatever I wanted and I really loved doing it. Then when I worked at Aeropostatle, every manican had to wear exactly what the company told you to put on it. It was the most daunting task and I hated doing it!
I really wish I remembered to bring my camera so when I go in tomorrow I will take a picture of my "room:" to post on here :D
It was sort of a big task to take on in my first hour there but I did it pretty lickity split with the help of Annes daughter who is 11 or 10 I believe. At first I tried to do a kitchen theme but there is this large purple chair in their and before I knew it I was using the lavender chair as my inspiration and putting things in the section that matched purple. I got to pull things from the basement and around the store (as long as I replaced them with something!) When I first started the task I thought it would take me almost the whole day but of course after I had inspiration I was done in an hour.
Then Anne got us Pizza and I didn't do too much for the rest of the day. Sat out in the garden center for a while, re-arranged a few things around the store. It was really fun. I think this experience is only going to re-confirm that I want to be my own boss and do what I want. In the past few jobs I have had there has been so many rules, regulations, and policies that I feel like I have no creative freedom and it drives me nuts! When I worked at Cato it was my job to dress the 4 manicons. I pretty much got to dress them in whatever I wanted and I really loved doing it. Then when I worked at Aeropostatle, every manican had to wear exactly what the company told you to put on it. It was the most daunting task and I hated doing it!
I really wish I remembered to bring my camera so when I go in tomorrow I will take a picture of my "room:" to post on here :D
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